Please help me GOD

I need help.. last night was so bad. I was crying. and I could not stop.

I want my baby back.I want to accept that I dont want him the way he is.... I want him to recover. yes, Isaid it.. I said it.

I want him to have friends, go to school, talk with us.. enjoy life.

I am wiling to pray to any and all gods in this world, any religion.. I only want my baby back.I am desperate..

What should I do? How can I get peace?